"I am going to be okay." It's a very important statement because it requires strength and decision. I know that one day I will be able to feel okay and feel joy again. I am not sure how long it will take me to adapt to this new me. I have faith that life will bring me many beautiful and meaningful things. I am here for the ride. I will live the rest of my life trying to be at peace, and I will share with you all of what life brings me. I think of every day as a day closer to you. I will see you again, I just don't know when, but I am ready. I have been ready since the day you left, but I understand it is not my time yet. In the meantime, I pray to dream about you and to get signs from you. For now, all I have is MY GRIEF.